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10.04.2012 "."

I’m feeling so good about myself lately.

When I think of my future, I’m content. Happy.

I feel so strong. It’s such a difference from how I was a few years ago. Then I felt damaged, hopeless.

But today is different.

When I dealt with my depression for the first time, I kept dragging it along with me.

“Oh, I’m crying because I’m depressed.”

“Oh, I’m not going to go to school, because I’m depressed.”

No. That’s all bullshit. I’m not going to let myself get to that point, of using my depression as a crutch.

I’m Jenna. I’m me. and you know what I am? I’m strong. I’m emotional, yes, but I’m human. I’m a passionate, caring, loving, stupid, selfish, wonderful, emotional, human being.

I will keep writing. I will keep creating art. I will go to a great school. I will become a creative arts therapist. I will help people. I will keep believing in myself.

Sure, I’m still struggling. But in those first years of high school, those years where I felt like I was drowning, I wouldn’t let myself get better. I kept dragging myself down, all because I was “depressed.”

Well no. No.

I’m drowning the ocean in its own waters. Screw that.

I’m not merely “surviving.”

I’m living.

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